Feminine and Submissive -- Just by reading?

Practicing ttwd with Storm makes me feel more feminine.  Before I started blogging and receiving feedback from you gals, it never occurred to me that many other women would feel more feminine because of ttwd, too.  My gosh, how could I not know this?  But, I promise you it is the absolute truth that because of my extreme athleticism, I just don't feel girly.  And you know what?  I don't really want to BE girly and I never have.  Although my wedding dress would beg to differ now that I think about it.  And we had pastels as the colors for the groomsmen and bridesmaids.  That's kind of girly, isn't it?  The best way for me to describe my wedding dress (because I absolutely refuse to go look any up here online because that is GIRLY!)........ is one of those interesting looking accordion toilet plungers with the ripples ......   a big white one made of Cool Whip....... throw some lace over that, shove me in the top of it  and there's my wedding dress.  I don't remember caring what anyone else thought of my dress except for Storm.  I couldn't wait for that moment when my father had walked me just far enough down the aisle where Storm would come into view for the first time that day.  I was so nervous that I was glad to finally see him and then finally GET TO HIM at the altar.  Whew!

I enjoy putting on sexy panties and bras for Storm though..... as long as they don't poke me in weird places.   And as long as Storm doesn't poke me in weird places either! Just kidding, if you're reading this, Honey! (I know you are!  You can poke me anywhere you want, just keep in mind that BDSM checklist I filled out ten years ago first, k?  You also won't find any FF that I write on PK's blog that is about me wanting my Hard Limits crossed either! No thank you!)  HA!

But, what girl do you know that puts on fishing waders one minute and then wants to be naked bent over her husband's lap, getting her butt slapped the next?   Me!  Reeling in a 2 foot fish earlier in the day and then on my knees giving Storm a blow job later......  that's me, too!  And, yes, I showered first, thanks for asking!  As a matter of fact, we both end up in the shower and then some soapy gratitude and servitude on my part takes place in there sometimes!

Before practicing ttwd, I always thought of blow jobs as sexual and something nice to do for Storm.  But, I never felt submissive about it. I never even thought about that.   But, once the dd started........ changed my whole attitude about it.  It is absolutely completely submissive to me and Storm now.  We learned that the wife getting on her knees and giving her husband the gift of oral sex because of the time and attention and dominance he gives during the spanking was a natural thing to do.  This is one of the first things I ever read about spanking and dd and it shocked me, but in a very hot way.   The submission part also pulled me into the whole idea (with spanking being essential otherwise I wouldn't be a submissive anything!)  and I knew I wanted to do it as long as Storm didn't think it was crazy.  Well, you all know the answer to that as here we are 9 years later!

Because of life's circumstances over the years, there have naturally been stops and starts to our ttwd. Whenever I would start reading about dd or ttwd online in the few places I could find them, (way before I found you gals), I'd get it all in my head again and wonder if we could find the time and space and privacy to practice it.  I shared this with Storm.  Well, he told me something very interesting.  He said that he could tell that I had been reading about dd again before I brought it up to him.  I asked him how he knew this.   Storm,"I can tell a difference in you."   Me, "Just because I was reading it and not even talking with you about it?"   Him, "Yes. It isn't that you become a different person, you're just softer, more aware of me and of yourself around me, your attitude is different."   Wow.  I really liked that.   The power of the written word on a ttwd gal's mind.  Amazing!