Friday, November 19, 2021

Love Our Lifestyle - back to the beginning?

 Storm and I have very recently resumed some spanking activity.  He initiated this spontaneously.  Perhaps  he had been thinking about it, but he hadn't said anything to me about it at all.  Afterwards, we didn't analyze it together.  We just had a very sexy and kinky weekend with some private time and it was fun.  But, let me tell you where we've been in our lifestyle up until big things took a surprising, but welcome turn.

We have not practiced let alone discussed ttwd in a long time.  It was stressful and upsetting to fall out of this lifestyle, but it is what it is.  When I knew we were losing it in late spring/early summer, I was not a happy camper.  But, I was just not in a place where I was willing to do everything I could to keep it going anymore.  I knew this was tied to my sexuality so I anticipated some tumultuous times in that area as well.  

It is a weird feeling to not have a sex drive.  I was hurt, exhausted, confused and angry over many things in life in general, so I was pretty sure that was the reason for the lack of interest in sex, but I also considered perimenopause.  I just felt like I wanted to run away from it all.  Storm and  I loved one another through this, but it wasn't always lovely.   We can't help whatever outside forces were pressuring us both as individuals, as parents, as adult children with aging parents, and as two of the billions of people living in a freaking pandemic. We did some things wrong, but we also did what we could right.  We embraced a lot, talked a lot, and I got upset a lot.  And he stayed quiet a lot at times when I desperately needed him to jump in which drives me absolutely insane.  I warned him that we were losing our ttwd (he obviously knew as he is half of it) and that I could care less about anything spanking.  I didn't go looking for things to spark my interest, but I began to notice that I wasn't reminded of or pulled toward anything spanking related at all.  No blogs.  No reading romantic books.  No researching.  Those funny things that we spankos all have happen to us when we go to a store and see a random wooden spoon or men's belts or whatever, depending on what section of a store we're in ...... the spanking incidentals did nothing for me.  I didn't realize until returning home after shopping that those items did not catch my attention the way they usually would. Same with online things......... neither my mind nor my body responded.  This was new for me. 

There came a point where I just couldn't let myself care about it anymore.  I had to put it behind me (ha!) and just get back to what my husband and I had before it, which is in the end, that true love is not just a declaration one makes on her/his wedding day, but it is a commitment that each renews to one another on a daily basis.  Thank God early on in our young lives, we were mature enough to create a great foundation.  It was always been in my favor that Storm is so patient with me. When I finally got to the point where I could talk about it a little bit, I would ask Storm if he worried about it since it was so tied to our sex life.  As you would expect, he wasn't worried.  He missed it and liked the lifestyle, loved the sexiness and intimacy of it all, but he adjusted well without it, from my point of view.  However, one thing that he repeated to me on several occasions was that he felt we would do some form of ttwd in the future because the male to female power exchange is something that we were always drawn to and he felt we would naturally meander our way to it again. Hmm.  At first I was annoyed by his assumption and I asked if this was just magically going to happen because I certainly wasn't ever going to initiate it again.  I didn't believe him because I didn't think I had it in me anymore.  Nevertheless, subconsciously, I think him saying and believing the power dynamic is kind of "us" comforted me and let me just be....... 

My summer was filled with a kind of mindfulness, I guess, through gardening and learning to paint furniture.  It was also filled with something we call "junkernecking" which is going about your business driving around town, but whipping your neck around to look at someone's driveway you just drove by if it had a discarded, but still decent (and sometimes antique and worth $$$) wooden furniture set out for whomever wanted to rescue it.  No, I do not dumpster dive, in case you're wondering.  Laughing.

One hilarious thing that Storm and I did together this summer was learn to chop wood.  I just figured that I needed to be true to my redneck roots (not politically, barf!), and how could I be a resident of my area of the country my whole life and never have swung an ax or 10 pound sledgehammer?  Apparently after the age of 50 was the time for me and Storm to learn this skill.  Laughing.  Storm should have told me to go to heck with this harebrained idea, but he didn't because he wants to make his wife happy and he didn't want to damper my adventurous outdoor spirit that I just recently discovered I didn't know I had inside me.  Folks, that is hard work to place a wedge in a giant ass ring of wood from a felled tree and continue to strike (and miss) it until it splinters into 2 pieces, and then repeat that process until you have firewood size pieces. We don't even have a fireplace!  We were sore for days and I was sore in places inside me that I never knew existed.  We got overheated, out of breath, took turns, and laughed our heads off during this process.  We did this several times over the summer until finally, when I was at the doctor for what I thought was female pains, he concluded that it was my back causing all the problem.  I was like "Really?  Lifting a sledgehammer and splitting wood could cause all this pain down there for me?"  Him, "HELL, YES!"  Laughing.  He's right. I'm improving since not doing that anymore.  My back still needs to heal but the other parts feel much better.  Gosh, what was I thinking?! And my poor husband being such a good sport just took it all in stride, but he is glad we are done with that activity.  Don't worry, I have more adventures planned! 

I have continued with the furniture hobby and I am learning a lot, many times what not to do!  And there is something about it that is kind of like meditation.  I'm learning new skills which is great for my old brain, but also thoughts are naturally coming and going......and then they can just float out in to the open air, I guess and not bother me as much anymore?  Or at least I could leave them for a while even if they did come back later.  I needed this solitary time.  Why does there seem to be something about that that frees one up a bit to later deal with both serious and mundane things involving others?


Our summer has been a different lifestyle than the one we were living with ttwd.  Parts of it were better, parts were not as good, but all of it was necessary.  And Storm was right ....... for whatever reason,we found ourselves in the bedroom wanting to be intimate with one another although it took a bit of persuasion on his part to get me in the mood.  He worked his own kind of special magic that he has with me, and then he spanked me during this in a sexual way.  To my surprise and delight, my body and mind responded.  Holy smokes.  I am still turned on by this.  I honestly thought it was gone.  It's not gone.  And it came back to repeat itself the following day as well at Storm's instigation for a second time......It's a good feeling to know that the Storm still Whispers to the Wind, which is how all this started in the first place.  What comes next?  Back to the beginning?  We were, after all, engaged an inordinate number of years ago today.! 

So hello to the blogging world again.  Thank you for visiting and reading today.  Please leave a note below letting me know how you are doing and how your lifestyle is going, whatever it may be.  Much love to you all. 



22 comments:

  1. Happy LoL day Windy :) I enjoyed reading this. You know, one of the things I have always loved about you and Storm is your ability to work through the tough times together. I'm so glad to hear you are enjoying some spanky action again:) I love your furniture hobby too. What a wonderful outlet :)

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. Hi, Roz! Thank you for your encouraging words. You always find sweet things to say and important things to add to discussions. Work is an excellent word to describe what we do during tough times. lol It is a ton of effort, but as you know, it is worth it. And, yes, spanked just in time for LOL day over here. Whew! Hugs, Windy

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  2. I'm so glad Hermione decided to host LOL day - it brought you back to blogland !! I have missed you - you always seemed to make me laugh ! and I enjoyed reading about your journey with TTWD :)

    I have one question for you though (putting on a very serious face) IF you do not have a fireplace what the devil did you do with all that fire wood???

    So glad there's some ttwd coming back for you and Storm :)

    Enjoy LOL day Windy

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    1. Hello, MStar! I'm glad H decided to host it, too! And that a little birdie with a southern accent bugs me, I mean encourages me to get back to some form of writing. (PK if y'all don't know!) You have always been very supportive of me here and in my writing and I thank you for being that!

      You guys would laugh your heads off if I showed you the pitiful pile of wood that we actually split. It took us FOREVER to do just a little bit. Our adult kid's partner has a fire pit, so we always gave the wood to him. Also, we could always just put it on side of the road behind our house for anyone to take for free. Plenty of people would love it. I do want a fire pit someday for outside though!

      Yeah, a bit of spanking (just the perfect amount, yay!) came back to us. We shall see if it leads anywhere further or just stays sexual in the bedroom. Either way, I'm sure I will let you all in on it, most likely.

      Happy LOL, Day to you! Hugs, Windy

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  3. Wow. Just wow. What an insightful post, Windy. I have missed you, so welcome back to blogland.

    Hugs,
    Hermione

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    1. Hey there, Hermione! Thank you so much for hosting LOL day. The way you presented it on your blog made me want to catch up with everybody even though this was kind of hard to write and share. I appreciate you saying you missed me more than you know. Thanks again so much and happy LOL Day.... maybe I'll see you at brunch sometime to get my brain back in gear. :) Hugs, Windy

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  4. Windy - Happy LOL day. I enjoyed reading this post. Thank you for sharing and I also am happy to read you are having some spanking fun.

    Love,
    Ronnie
    xx

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    1. Thank you so much, Ronnie! I'm happy about the spanking fun, too! Happy LOL to you as well! Hugs, Windy

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  5. Happy LOL Day, Windy! Thank-you for sharing your feelings. I am so glad you reconnected and found your spanking spark again. :-) Hugs

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    1. Hiya, Terps! Thanks for reading my feelings. lol Thanks for being happy for me about the spanking spark. Happy LOL Day! Hugs, Windy

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  6. I love seeing you here! I feel like many parts of the post could have come straight from my head. Except the wood splitting. Even I know better than that at my age. And Morningstar did ask a good question, is this chopped wood just for decoration? Sadly the part I don't connect with is the hope of things to come in your TTWD life. We're still a loving couple, just without the spark I know TTWD can add. Good for you guys!

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    1. Hey, you little southern birdie whom I referred to in my response to MStar above! Laughing. That is very interesting that parts of this resonated with you so much. I wonder why we're friends? haha Ah, yes, the wood, I also answered that above. I wish I could post pictures for you all to see the ridiculousness ...I think I even have a video. Laughing. But, I cannot, of course! I don't know where things with ttwd are headed or if they are headed anywhere at all. I kind of don't want to bring it up yet. But, I also can't imagine me keeping my big mouth shut. We'll see and you'll know either way! Happy LOL Day, PK! Hugs, Windy

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  7. (waving) Hi, Windy! Happy LOL Day. Well, you know... this pandemic really put a damper on TTWD for me. But I am trying to get back into it, because I need it. Always will.

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    1. *waving back at ya*, Erica. I know the pandemic has sucked for you regarding the whole spanking partners things. You know, it makes me kind of think I should be more grateful that my spanker lives here and there is always the possibility even if it doesn't happen. Whereas, what those of you who are truly out in a physical community, boy what that has done. No therapy! Bummer! I understand your needing it...I need it, too. Thanks for leading the way. I do enjoy your blog. Always makes me think. Thank you so much for stopping by. Hugs, Windy

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  8. Chopping wood, I haven't done that for a while. It is so tiring, but good fun :) Happy LOL Day

    Prefectdt

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    1. Come on over and you can chop all the wood you want! We're done! LOL Thanks for stopping by, P. Hugs, Windy

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  9. Hi! Nice place you have here, though the margin weather is tempestuous to be sure. LOL It seems we share some participants. I'll be looking around in the days to come and get to know you a bit. Feel free to do the same.

    I have linked you as promised.

    All the best!

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    1. Welcome, Kd! Not crazy about the weather, eh? LOL Yes, we do have some fellow commenters/bloggers in common. I did visit you and I added you to my blog roll. :) Looking forward to conversations. You know a whole lot more than I do, but I will try to keep up when it gets deep. lol Hugs, Windy

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  10. Windy,

    I'm glad you and your husband found your way back to TTWD. Thank you for sharing your story. Happy LoL Day.

    Hugs,
    Bonnie

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    1. Hi, Bonnie! Thanks so much for reading. Happy LOL to you, too! Hugs, Windy

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  11. Hey WIndy!

    so happy to read this! Mainly because I think we are a lot alike and it gives me hope but also because it made me laugh. Hard! I haven't done that in months.

    Thanks for that. I am glad you guys found your way back.
    Boo

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    1. Hey, Boo! So glad you saw this post and made the time to read and comment (and laugh!) Here's to new beginnings....wait, that's PK's blog..... :) Hugs, Windy

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